Lord help me to be yours fully.
To be a mother who loves with your love.
A wife who loves with your love.
A woman who is a picture of Christ.
Sometimes I feel dark.
I argue with Josh. I feel extra tired. I get sick. Physically sick... no joke.
This is what happens when I become complacent.
Then I think....
Am I missing him (Asher James) grow up?
Am I at my computer too much?
Am I longing for things of this world.
yes. yes. yes.
Truth. Sometimes its just the truth.
I waste so much time. Sometimes, so so so so so so much time.
He is smiling at me. I am checking Instagram.
He is growing up in front of me. I am distracted.
Here's my conviction this week.
& I say it simply for myself. (I do not mean to put this on anyone else)
Don't waste time. How precious are these days.
Asher James is only a babe once. He will only fit in my arms the way he did today for today. Tomorrow he will be a bit bigger. He will fit different. And then the next day he will fit even a little more different. & so on and so forth until he hardly fits. Josh and I are only in this stage once. New parents. Learning. Learning can be hard, but when following the Lord I truly believe it is beautiful even when it is tough.
So if Im quiet sometimes on my blog its because I'm trying to slow down... To not be distracted, and truthfully sometimes I blog for the wrong reasons. And then other times I blog because it can be an amazing outlet, and place to share my life, and remember these days & that is when its a good thing.
I want this to always be a good thing.
This post is inspired by my friend Mandy over at She Breathes Deeply ... One of the most honest and beautiful Mommas in the blogging world... in my opinon.