Let's Start With Some Deep Thoughts:
(The day after we were engaged)
Jasha & I knew each other for four months when we got married.
We had been engaged for two.
While it was a magical romance... I can say one thing for sure...
We were young.
Age wise I was young... barely 20 when we wed. Jasha was 23.
Still he had only been a Christian for about a week before we met.
But we knew we were made for each other.. that can always make things hard.
Because we got married so quickly we had to deal with things in early marriage that we hadn't laid down to the Lord. To be honest we didn't even know some of those things were buried deep with in us.
The key word of our marriage has been GRACE.
God is so good. He knew we would run together into marriage... He knew we were young.
He knew we needed to learn, and break to be His... for our marriage to be His.
Now we haven't even been married a year and a half yet, but I can honestly say we have grown up so much from the beginning. When we talk of our early days... we always say something like... wow we were young.And I love that. Its our path. It was at times hard.
Still we even turned down wise counsel from a few people who said to slow down, and that there was no need to rush. This was good counsel. We're sorry about not listening. Truly, wise counsel is a gift. That's something we have learned as well. Especially being in a city that is a bit of a wilderness to us, and without much counsel...it's a gift, and something to be cherished.
But life can't be lived looking backwards. Thinking about what if?
& My life is beautiful. It's full of grace. I think all life is a work in progress.
Hopefully getting to know the Father more, and shedding our selfish ways.
Beauty in the breakdown right?
With this all said I also want to say
My husband amazes me. I can't even in words say how amazing he is.
All I can say is
All I can say is
He is something.
Everyday I grow more in love with him. Everyday I am excited to see him grow more and more.
Anyways so my point.. sometimes people tell me they think our story is like a fairy tale and I'll agree I think it is (at least to me anyways ha)
BUT this is always another side.. a human side.
And God is good and loves us humans no matter what.
No matter which way we go. He will always be there to faithfully guide you, to love you, and help you grow in Him, in love and in life.
This is pretty deep.
I'm pregnant. I'm pretty emotional sometimes. Especially tonight.
I think I felt my little one kick!
I really do... a few lil bitty thumps.
After I cried this song came on in my itunes (see below) and it made me think about my life and how much Joshua & I have grown and I just praise God! For our life.... for growth... for His never ending grace. We are so blessed.
It's a pretty awesome song, and the only part that reminds me of us is the "we were young" part.
Still it's awesome, please listen